anticipation

ginger: caid, tell colleen who's coming over to our house tonight.

caid: amaaaris! yeah! her likes to eat my face!

8.5, 8

today--after wondering offhandedly about it through the years--i received confirmation that my feet are, indeed, two different sizes.
dang it.

novice

every time i do a new piece of art work, i feel like i'm learning to draw (or paint) all over again. like i'm figuring it out for the very first time. i suppose, in a way, i am. and though it can be frustrating...i hope that feeling never entirely goes away.

growl

it is not lunch time
but chipotle calls my name
yummy burrito

afresh

starting something all over again--there is nothing more frustrating or more freeing. in this case, my commission i worked on all weekend. here's to a new beginning...

clive

"no reader worth his salt trots along in obedience to a time table."

~c. s. lewis

mermaid

by edmund dulac

friend

there is nothing like you.

forward

"so...i'm trying to think of how i'm gonna...do life."

~auntie wren

tired

hot, wilty weather
agapanthus pale and tall
i need my coffee

mmm

i really like that the studio smells like a florist's shop.

Do You Like Candles?

...asked the license plate cover on the car in front of me.

βράγχια

she inhaled and plunged under the surface of the pool, bubbles erupting from her nose and mouth until her lungs were empty...and everything grew silent. trying to float as motionlessly as possible, she waited for the sensation of the water to disappear, leaving her with a feeling of utter weightlessness. at that very moment, she drew breath.

sweet hurt

thank you, Lord, that my rickety body is working so i can move and run! every single step and push is a wonderful gift.

visages

a wonderful and fascinating thing i've found in my experience is the act of drawing a person's portrait as a way of getting to know them. as one who is in love with human beings and their quirks and passions--but often too shy to actually talk to them--it is sometimes the only way i know how to be intimate with people. to study their faces...in all their beauty and imperfection...likely by the time i am done i will know the subtleties and curves more than even they do.

there is nothing else like it in the world.

looking

endless application submissions, reviewing my student loan debt, and dead-end apartment huntings--i have discovered--contribute to mild malcontent.

quiet

He loves me,
He loves me, He loves me, He loves me
Jesus loves me
He loves me, He loves me, He loves me
i am
i am,
His Bride

~Kristen Sadler -"How Could I"

listen to it. it's beautiful. kust like Kristen herself :)

going...

off to biola today...time to see how my script turns out! the Lord has certainly blessed the preparation for the children's ministry...both mine and others...so i have no doubt He will preside over the time itself. such a relief to know it's not all dependent on us.

tuesday

filling out job applications, watching 12 monkeys and eating pistachios...

slip

today was one of those slow, deceitful days.
kind of headachey, not very productive, where i easily lose focus on what is true.
it's so very easy to do.

super

lady behind me: "hey, wow, i really like your haircut!"

me: "oh, thanks"

lbm: "yeah, where did you get it done? cuz you know i'm so afraid of going somewhere and the person messing it up!"

me: "well actually i cut it myself"

lbm: "..."

apparently, people think cutting your own hair is really weird.

older

it's an inexplicably strange feeling, willingly pouring robitussin down my throat, when i refused (kicking and screaming) to take it as a kid.

ambassador

pip bends down to sniff a little blue flower...

colleen: those don't smell

pip: anything smells if you sniff hard enough

genuine

"there is a difference between devotion to a person and devotion to principles or to a cause...many of us who call ourselves christians are not devoted to Jesus Christ."

~oswald chambers

they are fighting!

sarah has always said i have "cliche" dreams (as in, i always dream about things that happen to me during the day, or a movie i see, etc.). this was once again confirmed to me the other night when, having fallen asleep after reading a book about people being chased through a dark, rainy forest by zombies (amaris loaned it to me), i of course dreamed that i was being chased through a dark, rainy forest by zombies. needless to say, i was real stressed out when i woke up.

werewolf

oh how i wish i had an apartment in new york, london and paris. it's almost distracting me from being able to work.
thanks a lot, cat power.