this actually happens a lot

i went to amoeba tonight and bought 2 cds...one of them being cat power's the greatest. i've been wanting to pick it up for a while, and there it was in the used section.
i listened to it on my way home, and while at once being so wonderfully delighted by it--i was also extremely frustrated because, damn it, i want to write music like that.


"we have to realize that we cannot earn or win anything from God; we must either recieve it as a gift or do without it."
even in this "age of entitlement" this is so difficult for us to accept. it is not in my nature to desire poverty, vulnerability and helplessness...and yet...
"...the greatest blessing spiritually is the knowledge that we are destitute; until we get there our Lord is powerless."




"O Lord, deliver me from this lust of always vindicating myself."
~St. Augustine



thanksgiving last night
sleeping in ridiculously late today

nothing like home-made apple pie for lunch.



it has been 36 hours since i made eggplant parmesan and my skin finally doesn't smell like garlic anymore.


memorial for gwennie tomorrow at 11...lunch afterwards at my parent's.
for details e-mail me:


"For with You is the fountain of life;
In Your light we see light."
Psalm 36:9


thank you

thank you everyone for the prayers for the family. please continue to intercede for joey, ginger and caid. the outpouring of love we have all experienced has been overwhelming...we are so grateful for our family in Christ.


Gwenyth June Adams
July 3, 2008 ~ November 14, 2009

with mama and big brother, Caid

we are so grateful that you are the Lord's, and that you are with Jesus
in your full and perfect glory with Him
who made you so lovely.

i love you and miss you ceaselessly
the day can't come soon enough when i will see you again, little bug.



hey everyone, please be praying for gwennie...a few days ago she got very sick, and she's been in the hospital since yesterday. they diagnosed her with pnemonia and about an hour ago they admitted her to the ICU. i don't know if it's H1N1...she is very susceptible and weak, so please lift up prayers of healing for gwen, and strength for joey, ginger and caid...thank you...
"no calamity will bring only evil to us, if we immediately take it in fervent prayer to God."



it just took me about 8 seconds to realize i confused my proactiv toner with nail polish remover...



simple algebra

(good drawing day) + pizza + wine + (top model)
full + drowsy + ( feeling productive)
(not having to wake up early)

sleeping well tonight

and who says i'm not good at math.


i love how scared people are of liking the new moon soundtrack.



laura and i have been watching the oc in the evenings.

last night she had a dream that she, pip and i went to see a band...which was made up entirely of clones of luke...and began their set with the nazi heil hitler salute before plunging into a haze of death metal. apparently i really liked the music, so i stayed behind while laura went after pip, who realized he needed a desk chair and ran off to find it. wondering what on earth i could possibly like about the band, she searched for pip, at one point descending down some stairs and found herself in a labyrinth full of creepy jim henson-esque goblins...the end.



Look among the nations and
Be utterly astounded!
For I will work a work in your
Which you would not believe,
though it were told to you.
Habakkuk 1:5



third post attempt. i got nothing.


i have...

"An Italian singer wrote this song with gibberish to sound like English. If you've ever wondered what other people think Americans sound like, this is it."



my roommate laura and i had wine and cheese for dinner tonight.
at one point she was describing to me the different things i could taste in her special bottle of Beaune-Montrevenots Premier Cru, that she bought while she was in france a few years back.

i swirled it, i sniffed it, i sipped it, i held it on the front of my tongue, on the back, and then swallowed it...and for the life of me all i could taste was "red wine".

oh well...at least i can still be a lord of the rings snob.



saw half-handed cloud tonight, and then ate animal fries.

i can hear laura typing away in her room, comically strung out on diet coke.

i'm doing my nightly push-ups on my fists because my right wrist is sprained or something...i think it makes me look sooooo much more hard core.

1 samuel 19 is so amazing and strange.