sick again??

Second time this month. really not liking this trend. first time it was Caid & Henry's fault! This time it's my parents!! ...or maybe staying up too late at a wedding on saturday.

Lord, i really, really need to be healthy for the next 7 weeks! As soon as the honeymoon's over, hit me with whatever. Please!

Mailed out a huge load of wedding invitations today....IT'S HAPPENING

A couple of weeks ago they had a pumpkin carving day at work. Being true to disney, i decided to do a villain. So, I carved a pumpkin that looked like scar.

Unfortunately i left it at work in my cubicle over the weekend...and the warmth of the office combined with a propensity to mold took care of my poor pumpkin real fast. At least i got a picture of it!

Here are Ian and Henry at my birthday thingie my family had for me. Isn't Ian looking amazing??

i'm going to go take a nap and feel pathetic now...

BOOMBOOMBOOMBOOMBOOMBOOM

someone.

is having.

a RAVE. down the street.

BASS almost rattling my windows. people SCREAMING. WHISTLES blowing incessantly.

so exhausted. i was ready to fall asleep at 3 this afternoon. and stayed out til about 7 by the skin of my teeth.
i thought i was tired and depressed enough to fall asleep in spite of the nearby madness.

looks like...not.

i guess it's time for the sleeping pills and earplugs.

oww my skin--pt 2

not much new...just that the mystery illness continues. spent the weekend in ontario with a bum right arm due to overly swollen lymph nodes, and a persistent low-grade fever, among other things.

i currently resemble an elderly woman with arthritis in both knees. gonna try to go to work tomorrow anyway! or i might just go insane with guilt.
this is also, of course, the week i am on call for jury duty. but BLESSING OF BLESSINGS, i checked in tonight and i don't have to go tomorrow. thank you, LORD.

it's 8:30 and i'm going to bed. maybe i really am an old lady now...

oww my skin

sick.
   again.
       body hates me. pray i can see the doctor in the morning.

whyyyyyy

(and THIS for those who don't know.)

arliufgva;rui

i hate hot. i hate this HOTTT. i also hate ants.

hot and ants need to die now...ALL DIE!!

Little Ian had surgery again this week...and now he (and Henry, too) has a cold :( pray for his little body to stay strong and fight off sickness and infection!

I tried to run a couple of days ago. Seriously, it was mostly walking, with little spurts of light jogging...and i still had horrible pain in my knee by only a mile & a half. Ended the day with frozen peas strapped to my leg and almost unable to walk. So bummed. I miss running so much.

Last night i dreamed that Chad and my sister were both killed in a horrible accident. I can think of a number of things in the past few days that could have triggered this...but i haven't had a dream quite that devastating in a long time. I remember crying til my eyes and throat were dry...despairing...praying, begging God to let me wake up from it all and find it was a horrible dream. But it went on so long, and it was so real, and my heart was so broken.
Chad called me to wake me up this morning. The relief that swept over me as i heard his voice and reality hit was like a wave of water. Kind of like a few days ago...but naturally, even greater and sweeter. And i was exhausted.

sheesh, brain...stressed out, much??

sweet

well kids, my phone is dead. so for now you'll have to get in touch with me the old-fashioned way: email or facebook.

stressinging

why...after months of unemployment...i now have 3 employers that want my time and work?? i mean, it's WONDERFUL and THANK YOU LORD...but what do i do???

gah

i can't sleep. all i can do is think of how much i want to see and hold and know the babies.

agh

writing music is hard
.

er...

i think i am one of the most awkward human beings who has ever lived. now, no one get all huffy about this, i have very good reason. just...just trust me. just this once.

tested

4.4 earthquake at 4:04 in the morning waking me up from only 4 hours of sleep...

...these facts are seriously challenging my love of the number 4 today.

*head hits desk*

i'm realizing more and more that i have no idea where any of this is going.
("this" being: life, people, plans, days, hours, minutes, seconds...)
and i'd better stop trying to predict and reason it all out or i'm just going to drive myself nuts.

and you, probably.

woa-oh-oh!!

i've had "single ladies" stuck in my head since saturday. attending a "mock the grammys" party last night did not help this at all. it also does NOT help that every teenager at maranatha is singing it in the halls.

awe

just got back from a fantastic group art show called mod melange...it was comprised of illustration and fine art majors that i went to LCAD with.
i came a way with two very distinct feelings:

1~inspiration~these people are my contemporaries, they work just as hard, and most likely much harder than i do trying to make a living these days, and still are wonderfully and amazingly productive...so what's stopping me?

2~conviction~these people are my contemporaries, they work just as hard, and most likely much harder than i do trying to make a living these days, and still are wonderfully and amazingly productive...so what the hell is stopping me???

this actually happens a lot

i went to amoeba tonight and bought 2 cds...one of them being cat power's the greatest. i've been wanting to pick it up for a while, and there it was in the used section.
i listened to it on my way home, and while at once being so wonderfully delighted by it--i was also extremely frustrated because, damn it, i want to write music like that.

"miss police" :P

i like it better when they call me "police lady" "poli-ché" or "911".

and especially when they just call me "colleen". technically they're not supposed to, but i let it slide.

tmi...?

coming home tomorrow...it feels like i've been gone for so much longer than 10 days. i've done too much and seen too much and talked to too many people to squeeze into such a tiny fraction of time...! for now, i will enjoy my last day in beautiful annapolis with the lovely pappas's and their friends.

ps...living with (almost) exclusively women for over a week has completely screwed up my menstrual cycle.

post #100

is it just me or did that come really fast? like everything right now...it's all coming so fast...

...except, of course (this being southern california), for fall. 101 degrees today. SHEESH

spent

i've been working all week on my first real, full-scale background painting...which i hoped to have completed by tonight...alas i'm heading to bed defeated! i'm just too tired...i'll have to finish it tomorrow. it'll be nice to be done with this whole "learning process" and be able to whip one out in a couple of days like everyone else seems to do!
for now...sleep.