for Isaac, and so many more...

This is Jaime, and her intended son, Isaac. Isaac is a special needs boy that Jaime and her family has, for the past 3 years, been trying to adopt from Russia. And then this happened:
Why has Moscow passed a law to Ban the US Adoption of Russian Orphans?

The picture is from when she and her husband first got to meet and hold him in the Russian orphanage. These past weeks have been very harrowing for them...but their faith and trust has been an encouragement and an inspiration to all around, including me! Last week Jaime wrote: 
"Our adoption is not over yet; Putin still has to sign it into law to take effect. He faces a big decision and I am personally worried sick for him. Sometimes we are motivated things of supernatural nature which can play us as if we are puppets. Please pray for Putin, he needs it right now."

A few days ago, in response to the disheartening news from Moscow, a friend of hers wrote this:

"If you are a prayer warrior, if you care about orphans, if you believe in miracles, if you believe God still works in mighty ways, PLEASE consider adding this to your prayer list. 800,000 orphans in Russia, many of them unwanted and basically condemned because of physical disabilities, need a miracle. The president of Russia signed into law a bill banning Americans from adopting Russian children. Many wonderful, loving, godly parents are in the process of adopting special children from there, including my sweet friend Jaime Easton Kelley
We will not despair. God has moved so many mountains already in the Kelleys' journey to rescue Isaac, and this is just one more that He can move! Will you pray and believe with me that God cares so much about these orphans that He will show His mighty power, change hearts and laws and move whatever mountains are necessary to bring these precious little ones into loving homes where they can come to know Him?"

Today Jaime posted this link, and wrote with it:

 "Pray that this passes. It's no small or easy thing to speak out in a country like Russia. Pray for this deputy, who is fighting for orphans with special needs. It must pass both levels of parliament and then Putin must sign..."

And if you, or anyone, is wondering why we should care oh so much? Have a read here.

Our Great and Gracious God can still work...
Sweet Isaac! Your family is fighting for you!



how do you spend sweet time, cherish, and yet prepare peacefully (as possible) in faith for the coming death of your baby girl?

like this family...Madeleine.


Caid's Christmas list!

Following up from last year's...
so wonderful.

1. Perfect Pop Maker
2. Chocolate Poppr.
3. Cake Makin.
4. More Jugle Anmals.
5. a pug.
6. a STUFFED Anmal BALD EAGLE. (Caps by Joey)
7. Switch and go Dinos 'spinosaurus'
8. Microscope
9. a Book of the Anmals guts.
10. Big game Hunter
11. ?


December 16th

best. day. ever. 

more on that later... :)

ps...the world didn't end today.

pss...jeanie francis photography (dot) com.


bigger than politics

a horrific, horrific day.

the wrenching away of a child's life is just too much to much to process. in sickness, i have perspective...but in such diabolical violence...? i don't. i'm empty to it.

the angry web of evil and derangement that would drive a human being to this... we still don't know the seriousness of this problem. it is bigger than anyone wants to deal with.

many changes are coming, i think. i don't know exactly how i feel about it. are we ready for a real and honest conversation? perhaps i will expand on my thoughts at another time.

just thinking of empty little beds. empty little chairs.
presents under the tree that will never be opened.
when we got home from the hospital the night Gwennie, i watched Ginger walk in silently, an empty baby carrier in tow. Gwen's toys were still scattered, right where she left them only hours before. dinner dishes and her sippy cup still on her high chair. suddenly the enormity of what this grief would be hit in an jarring and distressing way. her life was everywhere...her little toothbrush. her favorite bath toy.  her sock left in the dryer. a dried drip of drool. a piece of paper she scribbled on for a moment, nothing fancy and easily discarded, instantly becomes precious.
it was long before steps were made to remove the things that made it hers. for weeks Ginger couldn't bring herself to wash the linens in Gwen's crib, her blankie and glowworm, her little tufts of hair. even her clothes, with their apple sauce stains and smells of sour milk. it took the imminent arrival of the twins to really make it happen. all her dresses in the closet...the new clothes bought because she was just starting to grow out of her old ones...
i'm still not sure what they ended up doing with them all. i have never felt the right time to ask.

these are a fraction of what these families are facing now. right now.

un. speakable.

it is...the worst of the worst night mares. and my heart is broken. 

This evening i met with a friend at peets to discuss wedding matters. Shortly before i left, i saw these two young girls. A big sister playing and cuddling with her little sister. They sat there in that stool, waiting for parents, no doubt,  talking and singing softly to each other, all the while the older girl making sure her little sister was secure, comfortable and happy. It was a display if sweetness and innocence in love and affection that was so desperately good for my heart. 

Lord Jesus, only You can save us here.


some things.

Well, lots of things. Lots of things all at once...

The twins have been diagnosed with RSV.

4 days to the wedding...and we were just informed that the place we were planning on living has been rented to someone else.

My dear friend and food coordinator, Searcy, has advanced pneumonia and told me in tears tonight that she probably won't even make it to the wedding.

It might rain on Sunday.

And i think i have a sinus infection!

those among many other "little' things. (work and finances included as well)
could i ask for prayer, please? i have not felt this overwhelmed in a long time. i know that God WILL provide, and a lot of this is Him just working out His very BEST for us.

i'm just a very scared human right now and i don't want to cry. with a sinus infection that would be really really gross.

thank you, if anyone reads this.